Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to youuuu, Happy Birthday Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday to you….!
HUGGGGIIIEEEEEEEEEE and KISSSIEEEEE …..Muuaaahhh….
You turn 4 today, year, f.o.u.r years have passed by and I still think that Im a new
mommy! Yes, everyday is new, everyday is something exciting, somewhat frustrating and somehow awe inspiring. When I wrote to you last year, I was wondering how many changes are in the pipeline and how you will cope with all of them. An year down the line, I see that you have coped pretty well in your own way…
You still miss our old home, wanting to go back to it sometimes and then you reason
yourself about why we needed to shift. You seem to enjoy going to school but then in school you hesitate to speak up to a new teacher. You miss us and the travel time we used to have before, but you also choose to stay back with the grandparents long after we have come home because you want to watch some TV or do some colouring. You are becoming a bundle of contradictions and its getting increasingly difficult to understand you – already!
You still throw your tantrums for the oddest of things and at the worst times! And then when I tell you that I will not hug you, you come to me, hug me and say that you will stop crying – all the while increasing the tears! Sometimes you seem to be your own person, all confident and decisive and the next second you come running to me and ask me to put on the light in the room. There are times when you dont want anyone to touch you and then, there you are waking up in the morning and raising your hands to be carried and asking me to hum that lullaby while you bury your face in my neck and doze off for those few extra moments.Im confused-are you still a little baby, or have you grown up?
Physically, you *are* growing up, you already reach my waist! :-O I can hardly carry you these days! *Touch wood* The health issues continue with very frequent
cold,cough,chest congestion and fever which we deal with as and when it comes…Im just waiting when that day will come when I can stop worrying about your health everytime we go out.The fussy eater and light sleeper that you are, I think that’s still sometime to go.
I realise that you are a very sensitive child. You are so attached to your teachers in school, still dont sleep well at night,still waking up in the middle of the night to check if we are there next to you 😦 Things when told in a nice manner and when you are receptive you do understand and tow the line. Those times I feel sad that you’ve grown up enough to understand!!
I miss that little baby that you used to be, and I am at a loss on how to handle this new “I know everything” little boy. Suddenly, Im afraid if Im being too strict or too lenient or too pushy or too smothering! What is best for you?
But in the wee hours of the morning, a few mins before my alarm rings, when you call out “Ammmaaa” in your sleep and roll over to hug me and cuddle inside my blanket- that’s the best moment for me, I don’t even want to wake up then. I want to keep hugging the soft warm body to me and feel and smell you. It washes out all the apprehensions and tensions and somewhere I feel that God above will do the best for you through us.
This year has been a growing-up year for you baby! Now a boy and not a kid, there will begin small expectations from you – be it learning in school, extra curricular
activities, behaviour at home…everything. For me, the most important thing would be to teach you good behaviour and manners and to think about what is right or wrong.Also, mostly how to be safe and how to stand up for yourself when we are not around. Too many things on the “To-Do” list, right Chutku? Like you always say “Dont worry Amma, baa huggie koDtheeni” I will believe that we are doing the right thing with you, as long as
you continue to come to us and demand those Jaadu ki Jhappis 🙂
I cannot describe how much we love you Sweety Pie. Our whole perspective to life has changed since you’ve come into our lives and we hope that we live upto your
expectations and you continue to give us your unconditional love.