A Father’s letter to his son

(Hubby’s first guest post…)

Dear S,

Someone decided long ago to set aside a special day in December to celebrate Christmas but little did they know that it would become more special with your arrival. I am not sure what is more special than the other but I know for sure that you are very special to me. Let me begin , therefore, by thanking god for a gift so special that has added a completely new meaning and direction to my life.

You are 1 year old now, and it just seems like yesterday that I carried you out of the Delivery Theatre and introduced you to what your world would be. I still cannot forget the bewildered and surprised, almost reluctant , look in your eyes when you were first pulled out of the womb. It was as if you were happy and content to stay inside amma’s belly as you knew that was the most secure place in the world.

It again just seems like yesterday that I cradled you in my arms after lulling you to sleep on my chest. I still try to cuddle you, but you’re not as easily convinced anymore. Besides, how big you’ve gotten! Just cant believe that its already been a year. A year of absolute joy, happiness and contentment which has also brought along with it a sense of responsibility and duty towards you. I hope I can provide you with a home here on earth that you would esteem and want to share with others. A Place of love, security and freedom….laughter, health and nourishment….a place where you can grow without pre-conceived notions and judgement….and discover the world without any prejudice or malice. Most of all, a place you would proudly call HOME.

Of late, people tell me all the time that you’re my clone, a mini-me. If only they knew how proud it makes me to hear that. At the same time, it’s terribly frightening that someone in the world has my DNA, along with the tendency to reproduce my quirks and frailties. Thankfully, amma’s DNA helps to balance that out. That’s the beauty of nature and God’s system. Two flawed or one flawed (me) and one perfect (amma) human beings reproduce a blend of themselves in someone who has a lifetime to live life better than they did.
I’m tempted to say that I can’t wait to see what your future holds, the joys and challenges that await you, the legacy your life will create. But I’m enjoying you too much right now. All 1 year of you.
I pray you cherish your life’s journey as much as I currently am.
Being your dad is the greatest privilege in the world and I thank you for giving this opportunity.
So until your next birthday, keep smiling, stay happy and healthy.
Affectionately and with a lots of love,

Appa.

Happy Birthday Chuktu!

I cant believe its been a whole year since I first laid eyes on you! I remember my first thought was “He’s so tiny! How do I take care of him!”. And look where we are today! And guess what – from thinking no party to 2 birthday parties for you – little monster! One at the day care that we had yesterday and one for the family on saturday – you cannot now complain that we didnt give you a first birthday party!

Little one, You have brought us immense joy, a joy we couldnt have imagined in our wildest dreams! At every milestone, when you first began to listen to your ammamma sing, follow me with your eyes, begin to smile when we spoke to you,fall on your stomach,sit,crawl and now the latest is holding and walking and when you show off your shaky standing skills 🙂 I feel so proud and so happy. But at the same time there is also this feeling of sad – you are growing up so fast, baby! I feel Im missing out on so much! I try to spend as much time I can with you – still I dont want the day to end, I want to keep playing with you, making you laugh, teach you new things, there is soo much to do with you!

And there are days when you are cranky and whiny and maybe unwell that I just cant wait for the day to end. Especially when your Dad’s working late and its just the 2 of us at home, after a long day I just want to feed you dinner and see you fall asleep rolling around on the floor mattress. But I guess thats also a learning – a lesson in patience that I now realise I will need cartloads of, going forward!

When you know what makes us laugh, when you try and imitate us, when you do something we dont expect – there is a pride – we know you are growing, picking up things yourself without us teaching you, but still…

But, you know what I remember at night before I sleep? Moments – moment when you drop what-ever it is you are playing with and start crawling towards me with a scream of joy,as soon as you hear my voice calling “Chutku” in the day care…no matter who is carrying you, what you are doing – you look up searching for me, find me and smile – that special smile that everyone seem to have noticed that you reserve just for me…when you wake up in the morning and stretch yourself and then search for either one of us and smile, when you hold my shoulder from behind and play peek-a-boo with me when Im busy folding your clothes – these moments are what I realise Im living for, the reason for wanting to have you, my baby, moments that I know I will keep in memory long after you’ve grown up. I can go on and on but I guess this is enough for now – we have the rest of our lives baby!
You have made me a mushy mom, my love – and today I have so many wishes for you that I’ve been praying long and hard all day long! Everything wish seems inadequate somehow, I fear I’ve missed praying for something important – every wish seems less and small for you.

My little one – I will only pray that you have a long, healthy life and be blessed with love,happiness and respect.

PS: I know Im a day late but what with organising 2 birthday parties for you apart from attending to office work and home, I guess that’s acceptable – just so you know how hectic life is  right now, when you read this years from now…

Bosses

Are admired and respected when:

– They take up their responsibility and get their share of the work done – themselves
-They know what you are talking about when you discuss about the project with them!

– They dont push the work on subordinates and expect them to finish it within stringent timelines.
– They accept if they’ve made a mistake and rectify it.
– They listen to you with an open mind
– They willingly log in to late night calls if required.
– They are ready to impart information without holding back. (without thinking that they might be giving away their position if they give us the information)
– They acknowledge your hard work and appreciate it
-They introduce you as the next in line to take up their role!! *That feels great I tell ya*

And Im enjoying working here…. 😀 *Touch wood*

Diwali Post – After a month!

I finally decided to post a few picutres of Diwali at home! 🙂 Things have been so hectic that I just didnt have time to download the picutres and put them up. Im just gonna let the pictures talk…

My Home – My Pride…

Wanted to do a flower Kollam but didnt get flowers in different colors the previous evening!  So here’s my small attempt at Rangoli…

Some scented floating candles in a corner
The Complete picture of the Rangoli and diyas. The corner ones are made from brass that I specifically asked Sanju to get for me from Chennai 🙂 – Thanks Sanju
Sangeeta – Am still waiting for my basil and roses 😀 – See how dried up my basil looks 😦 I’ve bought a new one though now…

 View of the upper sitting area and the electric Diyas hanging

 View of the living room – notice Chutku’s walker and toys?

 Hubby watching the flower pot – I didnt burst a single cracker this Diwali – just looked from the Bay window in the bedroom with Chuktu on my lap… Maybe next year I will teach him to burst them too 😀

MIL Lighting the sparkler from my Diya.

In all – the food was great,company greater. Every year I look forward to this festival that we celebrate with the entire cousins gang – thats what makes it so special I think.